Tuesday, 29 March 2011

Caving in...

Depression is taking its toll on me.

Often, little things amuse me. Cat strolling by, flowers blooming along the road side, blue skies, cooking, people watching, fat dogs...It doesn't take much to make me smile.

But that doesn't mean my life is peachy.

I have a friend who hates me to my guts and makes it her mission to inform people of my flaws behind my back.

My self proclaimed best friend easily abandons me for more popular people or for herself.

My college mates and M'sian friends are busy with their own lives.

My family back home are leading their lives without me.

The sole person I claim love from has no idea how to love me.

It's not like I haven't tried my best. I've turned my cheek and received a great deal of slaps. I've loved them as much as I love myself. I've offered everything I own to be used as their own.

It feels like I try so hard but I get nothing in return. Isn't love a basic human response?

Am I less important than a piece of exam? Am I just a tool until needed? Am I just a sideshow for the more anticipated main? Am I just plain unlovable and worthless to those around me?

If I could be in a state which I wouldn't care. If it could just happen now...quick and painless. If everything could just fade away.

Sunday, 27 March 2011

Dinner Menu

French Onion Soup
Painstakingly sliced onions and caramelised onions, de-glazed with dry white wine and simmered in beef stock...Deliciously fragrant but onions could do with more caramelising.

Mini dinner rolls
Needs work...failed to produce the crispy crust I so adore and under seasoned.

Japanese Melon Pan (similar to HK bo lor bao)
Delish! Soft, milky flavoured buns (although a tad dry and could be fluffier) wrapped in a sweet, crispy pastry crust.

Cooking is my antidepressant, my relaxant, my LSD, my serotonin and dopamine stimulant... If only I could be better.

Thursday, 10 March 2011

Makes me happy 13 =)


Evolution of my "sweet" addiction...pun intended XD

Gummy Bears

Brill webpage coming your way!

Jelly Beans

Wine Gums


Mmm...Chewy goodness...

Had an amazing Bath!

The date was 5th of March two-oh-one-one. 'Twas a regularly, ol' Saturday for most...
...but an adventure for moi!


Destination: Bath, UK

Mode of Transport: Train (that was delayed by an hour -.-)

Weather: White clouds with sunny intervals says BBC weather.
Pish posh...it was freezing!

Travel Buddy: Eric
Naw...Just messin' with ya.

Bath Abbey

Basically just a big, ancient church ><

Pulteney Bridge
'Tis a pretty bridge

Sally Lunn's, Bath's oldest House, c.1482
'Tis old indeed.

The Roman Baths
I have a feeling this is where Bath got it's name. I could be wrong.

When the munchies attack:

Breakfast at the Guildhall Market

Afternoon Tea in the Pump Room
where we savoured the famous Bath Buns

Dinner with our guest star at Yak Yeti Yak!
the lovely Ting Huong Eng!
Lack of photos due to rapid consumption of food

Sally Lunn's historical buns
No, I'm not talking about her gluteus maximus region

A delicious toffee apple...
...rolled in dark chocolate chips and studded with fluffy marshmallows

Yeah, I'm gonna rub it in reeeeaaaaal deep.

Dang...I ate all my souvenirs.

Souvenirs: Not anymore